It's a matter of changing to a better or a worst. It's your call to make. 

Back then, i made a terrible mistake, a mistake that I've regretted till now. I'm really really very glad that we're at least still friends now but I'm afraid of doing anything more then that, I'm afraid I'll lose you once again. Not hopping for anything more.. Contented with things right now.. 

Wishing that there will be a day that you'll be mine again .